wad is the truth and wad is not? is there a difference now?
emotions or reasoning? which to choose?
remain being myself or someone else, someone different?
am i a person or just a thing that people use and throw? most people just ask for what they want from me and than disappear only to appear again when they need more things before disappear.
physical tired or emotional tired? again who am i to complain or say anything.
happiness or sadness? i doubt there is such emotions in me or is there?
there are so many questions in my mind and many more that are unsolved except for 1 question.
bye for now than...

expressing

the thought of giving up is so easy
but yet when it comes to trying to giv up its so difficult
how i wish tat i can reali giv up now
so tired but yet again everyone is n some even more tired than i am
so who am i to complain bout anything at all

its all about me -_-'''

Aquarius Strength Keywords:

- Witty
- Clever
- Humanitarian
- Inventive
- Original

Aquarius Weakness Keywords:

- Stubborn
- Unemotional
- Sarcastic
- Rebellious
- Aloof

Aquarius and Independence:

Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being.

Aquarius and Friendship:

Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another. They love to make people laugh and cheer people up and it makes them feel good to make others feel good. They do not expect anything in return for this could put a damper on their freedom, they live with no strings attached. They are very unconventional and always full of excitement, an Aquarius friend always makes life fun. They might offer you a spontaneous last minute camping trip with no supplies prepared, if you decide to go along, you will have a weekend to remember forever!

Aquarius and Business:

Aquarius likes to do something useful with their lives, mixing that with their amazing way with people, they make excellent politicians and social workers/psychologists. They are progressive thinkers and are great at forming new ideologies and theories, any type of research is very suited to Aquarius. Aquarius one downfall in the business world is the attention to detail, they like the grand ideas and massive plans and can make them happen, but the mundane day to day repetitive details causes them to procrastinate. Aquarius needs a secretary.

Aquarius and Temperament:

Aquarius tend to be rebels just for the sake of having their own way. Their stubbornness sometimes causes their failure, they will continue to do something their way even though others have proved it is wrong, they are very smart people and know it is wrong but they will continue just because it is their way, they are very fixed in opinion and stubborn when confronted. Despite their stubbornness and fixed opinion, they will never impose their ideas on others, they have respect for everybody's differences.

Aquarius Deep Inside:

Aquarius are in search of wisdom, they are very observant and they can gather their information objectively because emotions do not get in the way, they seem to be above emotions altogether and when they speak, they speak the truth. Sometimes it may be shocking or painful because of their disregard for the feelings of others, but they intend no harm, they call it like they see it and do not emotions cloud their judgment, they are very detached from emotion. It is not that Aquarius are unemotional, they just to not trust their emotions so they incorporate them into their ideas of who they are. As a result, if someone does not agree with their ideas, Aquarius sometimes takes it personally, not as much as other zodiac signs however as Aquarius is intellect driven and not emotionally driven. Sometimes they wonder if there is something in life that they are missing because they do not feel like other people feel. This does not necessarily prevent them from being involved in intimate relationships, they are capable of this but the person on the other end will always notice an air of detachment from Aquarius. Aquarius wonders 'why?' so much that they can question their existence. They wonder if what they are doing is useful, they want other people to notice them and appreciate them, this is caused by underlying insecurities that wonder if other people accept them for who they are but these are never brought to the surface because to an Aquarius, it does not matter that much because they know that they are special.

Aquarius in a Nutshell:

Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind. Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions. They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation. They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think. As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation. They welcome change because boredom is their enemy. Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius. Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique. Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live. Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded. It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person. Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even thought this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.

lies

I'm Not Sure I'm Ready To Leave
But I Don't Think It's Safe If I Stay
And The Burden Of Loving You Is Heavy For Me
Yeah (yeah)
But I Just Can't Seem To Turn And Walk Away

'Cause everytime that I feel at home is when I'm lookin in your eyes (your eyes)
And the only truth that I've ever known is when you're tellin me your lies (your lies)
Now I can't tell a lie, it's all a blur, not really sure, if you're a blessing or curse
And the only truth that I've ever known is when you're tellin me your lies (your lies), and I...

Loves been a disaster for me
What started out so beautiful has turned to pain
What happened to my happily ever after
See I know that it's been over for a while but I can't break away (break away)

'Cause everytime that I feel at home is when I'm lookin in your eyes (your eyes)
And the only truth that I've ever known is when you're tellin me your lies (your lies)
Now I can't tell a lie, it's all a blur, not really sure, if you're a blessing or curse
And the only truth that I've ever known is when you're tellin me your lies (your lies), and I...

Got me holding on to ya...
Got me confused I don't know what's real or fake
Baby now the only thing I'm used ta
Everyday, everynight, all the time I hear your lies

'Cause everytime that I feel at home is when I'm lookin in your eyes (your eyes)
And the only truth that I've ever known is when you're tellin me your lies (your lies)
Now I can't tell a lie, it's all a blur, not really sure, if you're a blessing or curse
And the only truth that I've ever known is when you're tellin me your lies (your lies)

since day 1 all i've heard is lies after lies even after u said tat u wont lie anymore
how naive can i get to believe wad u say time after time
i feel damn stupid n dumb
just like the lyrics of this song, what i feel every single day is exactly the same
tried doing things to forget everything
but it seems that whatever i do
no matter how much i try,nothing seems to make me forget everything

yo ppl
ok first of all suntec dance 2009 is dope
congratz to the teams tat got in esp to triple T,F.Y.I, Flair nation C.O.A, Seven and all the rest of the NRA teams hahaha cos im from NRA haha lol
ok anyway for those who wans to (or dun intend to or dunno whether wan to anot) watch G.I Joe u better go watch it cos its damn nice reali.
for myself i dint intend to watch the movie at all cos i thought its some camera/computer effect thingy movie lyk all the rest but when i went to watch it i was lyk WOW haha yea
so do go catch the movie yea
ok lastly dunno if i should get tis pair of shoes




its $72 which can say quite low price alread but dunno leh
any commends on which colour etc pls do say yea
k tats all folks tat is if anyone i reading of course
y i say tat cos i noe my blog is lyk dead only alive once in a purple moon nt even a blue moon
haha lol
k la bye ppl

how come everyone gt problems wit blogger???

wads the problem ar???

ok time to do some blogging.

finally finished my 2 weeks of attachment n never kena anything haha

also learned alot during my time in the different places tat im being attached to although there are (many) times tat its so boring n also tired cos cant sit most of the time esp when there are patients ard but than again its bcos of the many different kinds of patients tat made it so fun haha.

so yea tats all for my CA

oh ya btw although its damn long time ago...ok nt reali long time but yea

TBG was dope as usual esp wit the overseas crews n also K.O Night also nice to watch 

so yea signing off now 

bb ppl

those who noe me quite well i think will also agree tat the things written are quite true and yes my birthday is in january

January

 

Loves to teach and be taught 
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses 
Likes to criticize 
Hardworking and productive 
Smart, neat and organized 
Sensitive and has deep thoughts 
Knows how to make others happy 
Quiet unless excited or tensed 
Rather reserved 
Highly attentive 
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds 
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love 
Loves children 
Homely person 
Loyal 
Needs to improve social abilities 
Easily jealous

haha n tis is such a random post 

wa!!! dunno wan to cry or b happy

jus saw my Clinical Attachment(CA) timetable 

for my first week im posted to tampines polyclinic( 29 June -3 July )

than 2nd week die liao posted to united medical care at toa payoh on the 6 n 7 July

health promotion board on the 8 July

Man Fut Tong Nursing Home at woodlands on the 9 n 10 of July hai so how wan cry or happy think both la haha

 yo ppl

ok going to talk bout poly life so far

erm now i gt 7 modules n my timetable is damn 'hole-ly' which i hate lo so much time wasted in sch jus bcos of the breaks inbetween anyway its week 5 alread in poly n common test is lyk on week 7 so damn fast rite aaaahhhh!!!!

ya so anyway im still damn lost from everything but slowly getting used to the life in poly alread 

oh ya n i gt sick n tired ok the food in sch alread during week 3 haha n im suppost to b in tis sch for lyk 3 years haha ok nth to say alread

till than ppl

bb

im sure tat most or all dancers hav been asked tis question which is 'wad is dance to you' but hav it crossed ur minds tat "why do you dance" and "for wad reasonsgoals/missions tat make you wan to dance"

well i'll been asked tis question recently n to say the truth once tis question hit me all i could think of was nth!!! my mind was blank!!! when i first started i thought it was cool(so wierd using tis word) but now i keep thinking bout tis question and all i could answer was "isitz bcos everyone else is dancing also" which is nt reali an ans but more questions. gotta find my ans which i did nt find last time reali hope tat its nt reali cos everyone else is also dancing. all i noe is tat i feel tat dance brings me joy and love and also i hav to consider bout my health n stuff hopefully i can hav the wisdom to make correct decision to everything including dance which i feel is important to me but i dunno y its important to me

P.S. anyone gt lobang for dope shoes?

NRA audition is tmr aaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

dunno if i've made a right choice by going for the auditions

ok im damn bored as usual  lol

anyway im thinking of going for the mass workshop for TBG(the big groove) nt too sure yet anyway if anyone is going pls do tell me and also anyone going for TBG concert do tell me also tis year's concert is ging to b dope i think cos cool mint is in it this year *YEAH!!!!!* haha i jus love them they are always so in sync n stuff yea so do tell me so tat i noe who is going n mayb we can go together haha

oh n im thinking of going there early again and my early is nt lyk 1 hr b4 ok haha must b kiasu for tis event its the only event tat i will b super kiasu haha

last year's TBG i when there with Huixian,Tiffany,Eugene and Freddie n we reach there at erm think 2pm if im nt wrong all thxs to my planning n kiasu-ness haha 

dope events are worth being kiasu haha

k stop here till than bye ppl

TPDE GEMS 4

yo ppl haha when for tpde's concert/production n its damn dope i tell u haha

the 'story' is bout cinderalla but wit a slight twist

of course there is cnderalla but instead of 2 step-sis n 1 step mom there is only 2 bimbotic 'bosses' n instead of having a prince there is a choreographer

quite a interesting production in all

i think i lyk best is all the modern routines even nicholas who is into street also lyk them haha so tat shows how dope it is

i think i lyk best is the part whereby cinderalla changed her clothes by her fairygodmother than she danced whoa i tell u tat whole routine is damn damn damn nice afew genres mixed together(ballet,jazz,hiphop n i think comtemp) all wearing different colours to show wad genre is wad colours haha

yea n there is also a So You Think You Can Dance sagment which is quite interesting n the best n funny part is whereby there is tis group of ppl 'auditioning' by dancing the shuffle etc towards techno song than straight away they were out haha damn funny n dope haha(no offence reali) those who gt the tix for tmr's show ur should reali go watch it n nt missed it heard tix for the sat show were sold out so those of u who cant get the tix wait for youtube hopefully there will b ppl posting the whole thing haha although it wun b so happening n exciting

think tats all dun wan to reali say too much yea haha so bye ppl till next time haha

i wanna watch boogie town which feat kaba n quest anyone wanna go wit me to watch???

i sprain my bloody back n i cant move

so i magine going to ur youngest cousin's bday party n all of the sudden while ur walking than u jus sprain ur back wit no reason tats wad happen 

its a very shity feeling

think wad everyone tell me is rite 

the looks n age of a young guy but the body of an old man 

yeah i jus gt my one stage tee haha so happy lol

anyway dunno if i should go stay over at my youngest cousin's charlet tmr

*edited*

im sure tat there r more n more ppl getting sick including me haha

having headache for lyk erm a week alread its damn shitty lo

last time keep wanting to fall sick(for wad reasons i also dunno im jus weird i guess) but now i dun wan alread  haha

y am i even laughing bout it think im jus weird hahaha 

ok think i stop here for now 

nite ppl

p.s. thx guys think u guys r rite i shall nt go to the same level as them

happen to b going ard reading blogs n i came across tis post on one of the blog so gt to giv credits to them(sydc)

when u watched the vid alread do think bout it yar n if can i feel tat the msg should b passed to as many ppl as possible

tired

feeling damn tired nt only physically but mentally as well

hai wat else can i do:(

hopefully sch can start soon lyk tmr so tat i will get distracted n forget bout everything else

randoom post

feeling very sick now

must b all the cny food taking its toll haha lol

tmr going back to sch to teach ppl again n after tat heaed down to oschool for popping class haha cant wat for tat class cos learning glides yeah

but my wave n hits suck to the core seriously 

anyway ending here kinda late or should i say early alread haha lol

p.s. diana i wan tat t-shirt haha 

ok jus a quick post on 23rd jan(cos now is 24th jan alread)

first of all i would lyk to thx those who have wished me happy birthday haha

reali appreciate it esp to huixian(although u nt there but i noe ur there.get it? cos i dun get wat im saying haha),samantha,yumin,angela n huimin reali thx u guys(or should i say ladies) for the cake n creaming my face wit the cake thx arh some more at food courst n sing so luod some more reali THX arh

n omg i jus realized its all girls aaaaaaarrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhh lol

anyway i relized i suck a popping all my hits r so small i can only do choreo but without any hits de -_-zzzz

n today's hiphop class wit AnAn is as usual i gt mistakes again haha lol

must change tis bad habit of making mistakes anyway over all had quite a fun day

see told ur comfirm gt things happen de rite haha

oh n b4 i forget(nt tat i will)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIK!!!! HAHA

ok since everyone(ok 2 only for now) asked me to update so i shall update

so here it is UPDATED haha 

ok lame 

ok seriously i shall update mayb tmr after im back from An's(AnAn for those who dunno) class

comfirm will gt things happen tmr de if dun hav than dun hav lo hahahahaha

nik wans me to thx him for telling me wat does roflmao so here thx nik happy? haha

anyway nik u aso must thx me for telling u wat does poser means haha

anyway poping on wed is also usual very fun seriously n also today anan's class is also very fun

she keep looking at me lo than when i look at her she giv me the smile tat says u noe ur mistakes arh than i smile back lo n ppl dun anyhow think hor esp ppl lyk hx pls la she's attached can haiyo how old alread ur anyway going for my first popping class tmr jus hope i dun die there haha lol 

k la nth to say anymore so end here 

bb

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrhhhhhhh

jus afew more hours n the O lvl results will b out

think all or at least most O lvl grads r going crazy now

n to think for the pass few weeks ppl ask me if i nervous anot than i jus said i cant b bothered but now i think i also going crazy soon

although i noe my results cant b gd but still theres always the sense of not being able to wait to noe wat will happen next jus hate tis feeling

y does life hav to keep giving us tis kind of feeling haiyo jus cant understand

nvm jus hav to wait than 

ok as promised heres bout today's class

well first poping class was hmmm let me see...

fun yet akward cos i can do rolls tat ben taught n hand hitting haha but i cant do stomach hit n my leg hits r lyk so weird oh oh oh n the 'best' part wats the butt hit haha ben was lyk going ard looking n checking a everyone's butt to see if got hit hard eunf or do correctly anot haha than everyone was lyk luaghing n stuff

but gt one thing very sian bout the class which is...nid to stand still on one spot cant even move ard lo how sian can tat b( at least to me) n btw for those of u who missed the signing up there r 3 more courses tat starts on the week of 2 or 3 feb not sure cos forget.

the three courses are hiphop 1 n two other new courses which r wacking 1 n LA/Lyrical hiphop 1 haha how dope can the new courses b but dun thingk will b going of them mayb wacking bout the other two nid to see how 

k tats all i thing i hav for today's 'report' 

bb

yo ppl...

nowadays reali lazy to update or even do anything else in fact

anyway going to start my very first poping class wit ben later

hopefully i can catch the things he teach(my first time learn tis genre) n also make some new frenz

tats all for now shall blog mayb once i get back from the class

HAPPY NEW YEAR