on the outside i may seem to be fine and happy just like everyone else...
but also just like everyone else,
i have my issues and my greatest is trying to fight against my emotions..
to most it may seem like their issues are way bigger than mine which i agree
which is why i chose not to say and show anything but keep everything inside...
everyday and night im crying on the inside and i know im slowly hurting and killing myself from the inside...
but still chose not to say anything to anyone because i do not want to worry anybody...
dont want to seem like im selfish or just wanting to attract attention...
and rahter help those around me, trying to make them happy, sharing their burden or at least be a listening ear to them even though i know i cant do much but still want to help them which is why many times the thought of "what if one day i'm just emotionless?" would it be better? won't than will i be able to help others more? i know its an oxymoron statement saying not wanting any emotions but still want to help others as helping others means that there are emotions involved...
all i can do now which is what im doing for quite sometime already,maybe for a few years,
is just to keep everything inside, to myself and carry on with things...
wish that things could be how it used to be but i know time will never be able to turn back...
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